Terrified of the Lord, I wore garments of fear

Terrifed of the Lord, I wore garments of fear.
My thoughts awoke me while my eyes were aslumber.
A voice called out, and my face fell in shame.
The Lord is stationed to issue verdicts, standing to judge nations!
I pleaded in fear, dreading the voice. I trembled when I heard: “Who is the man who is afraid?”
For I have been rebellious and wanton—how can a rebel refrain [from fear]?
When I remember that I have forgotten the day
I would be called to judgment,
my eyes stream rivers, and my bowels are burning coals.
Does man know that his steps, throughout his feeble existence, are counted?
Does he understand that his deeds are recorded with an iron pen? eternally?
That day, his children betray him, and his friends are unfaithful.
He is sated with trouble, his days are short, and they are like a dream in his eyes.
Man is feeble, and his thoughts and all his days are like a passive shadow.
His years fy away, like a bird, although they have no wings.
All the wealth he has accumulated is broken,without efort—
but his righteous deeds will accompany him to the grave.
Then God will arise from the throne of rage and sit in the throne of mercy.
Translated by Gabriel Wasserman.

Published in: The Posen Library of Jewish Culture and Civilization, vol. 3: Encountering Christianity and Islam.

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This poem is a penitential selihah. The poet fears for the repercussions of his sins but trusts in God’s mercy. The reference to “Who is the man who is afraid?” comes from Deuteronomy 20:8, belonging to the part of the Torah that would have been read in the synagogue in the month of Elul, directly preceding the month of Tishri and the holidays of Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur. When he hears this line, the poet remembers that Tishri is approaching and fears the upcoming day of judgment.

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